I have been planning to start this blog for quite a while now. I pictured myself typing away about thought after thought. I had so much to say and I felt it was what I should be doing. I firmly believed that once I finally got it started that other areas of life would really start to flow. I thought it would help my business, Scenter of the Mind, gain exposure and suddenly things would fall into place and I would be where I want to be.

I also thought it would help me socially. After being a stay-at-home mom for 25 years, going through a divorce, and losing one of my part-time jobs my social life isn’t quite what I would like it to be. I thought this blog would give me the opportunity to connect to new people, and share thoughts and ideas.

First there were some technical difficulties but I resolved those issues and finally got started. I had my daughter create an image for my home page and finally it was time to start writing. I wrote an “about” page and my first post. I was feeling great and so excited. I wrote another post and then I started running out of things to say. That is so not like me.

I feel like I hit some kind of a wall. I am calling it the wall of resistance. I think there is something stopping me from wanting to write all of a sudden. Could it be fear? I suppose. It is kind of intimidating putting my thoughts out there for anyone to see but if I don’t let people in on them I can’t connect with them.

So I wonder if it is just fear or if there is some unconscious resistance in me somewhere for some other reason. Could it have something to do with my business? Maybe that is where I am not ready for change to happen.

Whatever the reason, I figured if I wrote about it tonight, I would at least break down some of the wall. I would at  the very least be putting words out there, thoughts out there. I would be reaching out beyond the wall.

I’m just blowing bubbles and hopefully if I keep blowing them I can float with them over the wall of resistance.